Bath Rug Completed

Another one of my favorite patterns. Of course it is written in Portuguese. I made this in one day with a cotton chenille. Took about 12 ounces .

Knitting Needles for Sale on My Ebay

Just letting you know that I have posted to my Ebay a large collection of Knitting Needles. If you are interested in them please take a look. I will ship them anywhere in the World.

Car Has Been Sold

Thanks to the internet we finally sold the Dodge Spirit.

Today's Events

It was one of those days like so many others around here. I went to that place "Dewitt's " that I had mentioned yesterday. What was suppose to be $650 turned out to be $775.25. The owner found anyway to jack up the scooter prices on me. I am tired of doing business with people like him. He wanted to put a lein on my car just so I could get my plates for the year. What a rip off!. Well he is paid off and all the titles are in my possesion now.
On another note. Tomorrow my car is being picked up and the garage will be putting in the new engine. They found me one with 50,000 miles on it. That is wonderful! 10 days and I should have my car back. I will be in a rental for a while. Though I am pondering the rental.
I did see the doctor today and was told I have strained the abdominal wall muscle and also the groin muscle. Makes for painful movement. I won a raffle and another contest and look forward to the prizes. I love little goodies in the mail.
Oh while I am thinking about it. I have a bunch of baby yarn that I would like to sell. Pictures will be posted soon of the yarn.
Anyhow with all that I am off. .... toodles

Income tax time has rolled in for us. Time to play catch up with the bills and clean out some of the debts that are hindering our daily lives. My scooter for instance, bought from Dewitt's in Anderson. I would not recommend shopping there. I gave the title to my car to the owner as collateral and somehow the bill keeps getting higher and higher. Now he mentions a lein on the car when he is paid monthly. That is a bill that will be paid outright to get him off my back.
My broken car will be fixed hopefully in the next couple weeks. And as for me... I am broken again. Moving furniture by myself, I possibly have 2 new tears (hernia's ). I see the surgeon tomorrow at 1 to find out what is going on. I know one burns and the other is constantly hurting me. We shall see and hopefully he will schedule a time to fix me up. I do hate being broken.

Other then these few things happening. Oh and my conquest of the ripple afghan. I did it and am still doing it. Maybe a month left of crocheting to get it finished.
With this said I shall say good night for now.

Birthday Wishes Do Come True

I just got this today. A wonderful find and it is one of my birthday presents. this is a 4.5/3 cotton and I love it.

I have always wished for a wall of yarn. Well I redid my craft room and now I have that wall. I am tickled pink over yarn!!

Tapete de Coarao Pattern

I thought you might like to try something different. I made this with 4/4 cotton and it came out really nice. You can use a heavier yarn and make it a rug. I personally use an H or I hook for items like this. Hope you like it.

Yep Finally. I can wish my self a Happy Birthday!!

I asked for another birthday wish and it has been fulfilled. There is a yarn I love called 4.5/3 cotton. I found it and was given the ok to purchase cones. I got a couple 8 pounders. WOW that is a lot of crocheting for me. But it makes for the best Doilies and Kitchen items as has a neat texture to it. I LOVE THIS YARN. ... now I need to wait for it to be shipped.. hmph..But I am happy happy so that's all that matters.

Oval Doily Pattern

I mentioned a doily I am making, Here is the pattern for you to enjoy.

2 Days till My Birthday.....

What do I want for my birthday? I am I guess not like most people. I had asked for a shopping spree to a store called Value World. For those of you who do not know this store it is a awesome second hand (Thrift ) store. We have 4 in Indianapolis and I got to shop at them all. Of course I had half off coupons so I spent little and got a lot!
I shopped for myself and my entire family. Even got a large basket of hooks, needles , thread and some yarn .. oh and a couple leaflets.
Joe has offered to bake me a special cake that is delicious and low in sugar. So I wont miss the sweetness of sugar and still get chocolate. Yummy!!
While my birthday is on the 7th we wont be celebrating till this coming weekend. This way we are all home . During the week the family schedule is a mess and it is always difficult to get the entire family at the dinner table at one time.
In the mean time, I am crocheting a doily that I found online from a Brazilian magazine. I will post when it is finished . I am also pondering another afghan but yet to find one that catches my attention. In the mean time I do know a future project is a floor mat from another Portuguese magazine. I love their patterns and wish I could purchase them for my collection. Not to mention the yarns (cotton blends ) they use. Ah a birthday wish...... yarn.... I can wish can't I
I do hope everyone has a great beginning for the New Year to come.
Toodles ,
Gayle

New Years Arrived (whew)

Well I made it through another year and boy it was a super busy 2008 for myself and family. Christmas was decent and everyone around here was happy. If they weren't for a change they didn't say anything. So all was good.
Since the begining of the New Year I have been back again crocheting. It seems like I actually do this on a daily basis.

Here are just a couple of the items that I have made. and believe me there is more to come.

Oblivious or Just Plain Oblivion..

I can not actually remember how long it has been since this has all started, the broken cars & houses, moving in and out. All I know is that I am tired and my body hurts all over. When was the last time any of us spoke? A simple "hello" in passing, a phone call to see how each other was doing.. These things I can not recall...
From the moment the sun comes up till almost the time it comes up again I am running, errands, business, fixing something or trying to please someone somewhere. Yet there has not been a single moment in that space for me. Does that sound selfish?
You could say at this point I am beat, washed up and down for the count, yet I am not one to lay down and throw the towel in. " Ding" the next round begins and I am up moving again. Our closing date has moved several times and our Nice ( putting it sarcastically )Seller, is so worried about the money he will pocket , that he forgets that I am his bank or should I say the dollar sign he should be seeing. The date we hope that sticks this time is Sept 12Th. The man who says the house is ready will be here again Tuesday Sept 2ND. Maybe this time all the work will finally be finished. I am sick of maint people running all over the place. Though I am still waiting on the electrician for an outlet to be put into the master bedroom..
I did get a new roof and fresh paint of the 2 car garage this week. FHA said so, so it happened.
I wish they could get my car to work that easy. I had a engine rebuilt and in a matter of 5 minutes that blew up. Broke the cam bearings and now I have to start again. And most people wonder why I am the way I am.
I am looking to trade 2 cars for one. I found the one now to get rid of the other 2 cars. Any takers?
I am off. I have not slept in ages and therefore I am punchy and I would call it slap happy.
Hope you all have it good and have a blessed evening

Gayle

From The Heart

Dear Lord,
As like so many other days that I pray to you , today I will do so that others may join me in this prayer.
Dear Lord I pray that you Bless me with this loan for the house on 6th street. Bless my family with a place to live and a stress less move. Lord please bless all that read this prayer and grant them a good life and may be have comfort in knowing how much you care for them as you care for us.
Lord please please let my family find peace in knowing we no longer have to worry about being homeless. To finally know the feeling of joy and comfort in your arms.
I love you
Your daughter
Gayle

Gayle wanted to commit suicide today..
It seems no matter how hard she tries,
nothing she does , comes out the correct way...
From raising her family to buying a house
no matter which direction she goes
there is just no way "right "
Once again they are stuck
with no directional hope
like lost sheep without a shepard
on a long dusty slope..
I tell you this my good man and lady alike
If at all possible She would say Good bye and Good night!!

Life in a Nutt Shell or is it My Hell??

Good evening everyone, I hope you had nice unevenful days today. I myself wish I could say the same. As you know it being Monday, was the day to find out about the "House". I have been up since 6 am and running pretty much since then. Been on the phone with 4 banks and personally visited 1 twice today. I was called by the Mortgage lender this morning and told that there were several things that needed to be cleared up to make the loan happen. So I scurried up all the funds I could and set off to clear those things up. Mind you most of these were residue's from when my husband and I were first seperated. His depts. I guess he had a credit card that was purged. I settled it for $300.00 and paid half now half on the 3rd after my SSI check comes. Cleared 2 bank accounts that bounced from Gawd knows when totaling almost $270.00 and managed to finally be able to open a bank account with out being prosecuted for check systems. YAY ME!. After doing all this and jumping through every hoop put forth. The realitor calls and wanted to withdrawl the bid. I said no. She calls this afternoon and said that HUD never took the bid either way. So we take it as a no go. It is still listed as open for bidding. I guess we can up our offer. But now the Lender is calling me. I did everything HE said to make the loan happen. Not good enough. I have to have $3000. in the bank ASAP to show I can handle the closing costs and 2 months mortgage so I can have the loan now. Knowing I just paid through the nose all these bills to make the path for the loan. Where on Gods green earth am I going to get the "gift" of $3000.00 . The Lender said "Gift" I can rebid on the house but I need the "gift" .. If someome knows where the "gift" is. Please let me know. As I can not find it. I can not manage to make it happen. There is nothing left here not even food to eat. I have sold it all to do what I have and sold things I should not have to get what I did. Lord Help me I did what I could. .
So.. I guess after the Fire Marshall is done with the house we are in.. we are going to be sooo homeless it is will be not even worth our sanity. I can say I tried. I failed but at least I tried. I feel for my family and for dragging those I love with me into this mess.
Thanks everyone for the prayers you gave us. They all were deeply moving and loved by each.
~ huggles~
Gayle

To The 4th~ Cheers~

You now, it is the 4th.. of July. Pretty much everyone is out enjoying themselves and I am here writting this. I can hear the fireworks going off down the street at the race track and have no interest in seeing them. What is wrong with me?? I must be bogged down with issues. Yep that is it. I am seriously unhappy these days. I can remember a time when little presents were a norm. Not anymore, at least not in a long time.. I miss those days. I remember when I was considered beautiful and felt that way deep inside. Not anymore. I do not even have a reason to get dressed these days. Unless it is to head out to Walmart for groceries. I guess it is just how I took the cards that were dealt to me in life and I guess I excepted them or else I would have never taken them. But I do miss being a someone . I feel like a no one in a no where place. Nothing has been fixed that is broken and still sitting in the idle position of life not knowing if I am coming or going. Worse I am taking everyone down with me. . Sucks doesn't it??
One of my children has plans to move out soon , I can see it. She is 17. I wonder if she will finish school. I hope so. But I doubt it. She is choosing a path I tried to teach her to stay away from. Does this mean I failed? Or did she fail to listen? ~ shrugs~ I am off to make someones life as miserable as mine or make theirs better by seeing how blah anothers can be...
Happy 4th Everyone!!

The Jist of Things....

Some of you might be able to relate to what I have to say and I can imagine there will be others who have never known what it has been like to deal with the issues at hand. Well my life has not been easy and of late it has been what I would call pretty darn hard.
At some point I might ramble so please forgive me. This post will be rather long.

I am a mom who cares for 3 children one who is 17 2 who are 13 and 14. I have a man who is disabled and unemployed pending Social Security ( no income ) I have a Spouse whom I have been separated from since July of 2005 who helps me by sharing each paycheck with me weekly so I can get by. By no means would I call him a dead beat. Though he can be a pain in my ass.

Since 2007 I have moved over 5 times and through 3 states to land here in Anderson, Indiana. Why here? Because my mother is here and she gave me the "I am getting old and want my children closer speech" not to mention I was told I was very ill with cancer. ( I was misdiagnosed) but that is another story )... So I'm here paying way to much rent for a house in a very poor area. Most of the houses are falling over or are closed down. But I had hope when I moved into this one. The Owner wanted to sell. But he is asking way way to much money. We managed to talk him down from $60,000 to $40,000 but the area the most expensive house here is under $30,000.
I have terrible credit so I asked my mom's soon to be husband to help me and he is considering it. Had me do all the leg work and now the code enforcer is coming to look at the house because there are several violations .. like pane windows versus opened windows. Like in the master bedroom. Hence I get no fresh air at night plus it is a fire hazard. One reason why I am not sleeping. It is always hot in there even with a fan. My living room has one window and it is a pane glass window as well. No ceiling fan just a floor fan I bought and the front door. Very hot in there too . My daughters bedroom is a interior room. No windows at all just a door. Fire hazard.... The wiring to the house is not up to code. like wires are hanging out of the ceiling. My heating coils are showing in the bathroom because plaster came down. All these things the landlord knows. Mind you I have 3 outlets in the kitchen that do not work and 2 support the frig, freezer and what would be an ac unit. That he wont let me put in his window, The only one in the house downstairs that could be used.. And its in the mudd room.... This really stresses me out.
Now my car.. I paid someone who is reputable over $1200 which included all the parts. Oh and a dell computer that is still under warranty also.. to work on my car and rebuild my engine. He even had Joe assist him the entire job. Come to find out he did not put in Lock tight and probably several other small things. Now the car is a mess again and the engine wont run over 20 mph. It's gonna cost me all over the place again.
Ok so these are every day issues for me and I deal with it. But what gets me is the children.. they know I am under a terrible strain here trying to acquire a home so my rent/mortgage would be lower then $600. a month as that is what I pay now. (My ssi is $637) Keep in mind I support 5 total plus the x's help to keep it going here... all the bills too..Joe chips in and gives his welfare check and food stamps to cover what he can.
I give everything and above, clothing , personal needs, gas, insurance, repairs, mom can I have a dollar for a pop please... all of that stuff is on me.
As I was saying... the kids.. My 17 year old has forgotten that I am her mother and figures she is moving out when she turns 18 next April. She is still in 10th grade. I talk to her till I am blue in the face about a life better then mine , tech school if not collage. She hangs out with a boy who has been locked up more times then I can count and has issues.. big issues. He even told her that he would kill their child if it was born handicapped. She wants this???? OMG but what am I to do.
My 13 year old thinks that coming in the house at 10:30 is to early and wants to run the streets. Threatens me all the time to take off, Tells me I am good for nothing. Reminds me how poor I am and brings me to tears every day. She like all the others I have to fight with to do a simple anything around here. I have no self worth if I have no money for them.. at least the younger 2.
Now th 14 year old, He is Joe's son. I did not birth him. He came with his father. I will be honest. I wish he did not come. I ask him to do something and usually it is done half assed. He argues with me all the time and belittles his father almost every time he talks to him. He makes him sound like he is my puppet. "Oh you gonna have me do this cause SHE said to?" I have reminded him that I support him because his father can not. He does not care. I am a worthless piece of shit. Why is it that I have to stand for this. His father and I at piece when they are not here. But when the children the younger ones I mean are afoot. He and I are at war. No peace and I do not know what to do about it. Every little thing seems like a big thing. no privacy for us because someone in the house is fighting over something or always at my bedroom or office door for something stupid.
I Pray every day for help, because I am not making it, barely... my sanity is slipping as well as the basic comforts of life, food clothing... it is almost impossible to get by . I NEED SLEEP!!
We wont even touch the subject of the outside family's yet as they are upsetting at times to and add to the issues...if only I could concentrate on my crochet... I can't.. Someone send a Miracle please I really need one terribly

Father's Day Rain Show

Father's day... Somewhat quiet.... We had a wonderful storm. I must say that where we live in Indiana there is some great weather. Lightening to me is beautiful, Can sit there for hours and watch it. The rumble is soothing, reminding me of the low pipes of a motorcycle... Yes friends if you have been there then you know what I mean... But after the storms, sometimes we are gifted with a rainbow. Last night was one of those moments. Right before the sun had gone for the evening the rainbow surfaced. These are those moments caught on a digi for you .

An Acomplishment

It seems like forever that I have tried to crochet a pineapple and failed. Well in the midst of the madness that has been going on around here I have conquered the pineapple. It is not a fancy one at that but the beginning . I am proud, prouder so as my Jennifer asked for it so that it may rest in her room. Here is what it looks like

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